Why is it so difficult for oneself to choose love? It is very strange that many are advocating love, but to the other many who do not yet understanding this, choosing love is an uphill task which most of the time seems impossible.

What I can get is that there is no awareness when the choice stands in front of us. We don't even realised that we stand the chance to choose love rather than the others. And as a habit pattern operates in its usual manner, we choose other thing than love.

I have given myself a chance to choose love. I challenge my mind to choose love at every situation and when meeting anyone. It will be fun to see how the mind falls back to its usual pattern and observe how the wisdom direct the mind to choose love on the way I look at things when awareness comes into play.

I failed when I started to play this game. When one of my engineers done something wrong, I raise my voice and express the anger, though I didn't scold him but at that moment, I forgot about the challenge I place on the mind and failed to see that this is a lesson.

So I see that the mind react so automatically. The so called failure is yet another opening to be conscious again to the incessant operating pattern that always fall into hatred and ill will. For it allows me to see that even though I wish to choose love in every situation, when the real test come, the mind falls into its previous pattern.

Being thankful to the realisation, I continue with my journey of choosing love in my way of perceiving the world, in all my action, speech and thoughts.