Last night I was in a group doing this exercise. After that we were asked why we feel the ear at that location, there as we felt it and not at the nose area, not in the air, no where else but there. Different answers popped up from the group, one said because we pay attention, one said because we have the idea that ear is at that area. However, these answers didn’t hit onto the answer the questioner was looking for until one person replied that it is because of the sensation.
It is very strange that how come one question can have multiple answers? It is not until I argued what I answered is right that I get the realization. Our answers are based on which word we pick up. The one who answer about sensation pick up the word feel. I pick up the word left. The manner we pick up any specific word again depends largely on our habit and temperament. People who are more senses based pick up things based on feeling. People who are more logical based pick up stuffs in terms of logic such as direction and location.
In a way, the questioner also plays a role in posting the question accurately and precisely because different people pick up the meaning differently. When an ambiguity question was asked, a confused replied will be received. A pre-conceived idea of what the answer should be is also quite limiting. If a person is only seeing things through his own ideas, many things will be categorized as wrong, and self-righteousness arises. Arguments and battles could be a result and the holding on on ‘I am right, you are wrong’ will become very strong.
With this understanding, the mind become more receptive on how sometimes, what we are trying to convey get a different outcome. It is all because of the listener pick up only those things that are familiar in their domain. It is not surprising that misunderstanding and conflict arise from this. And also, this way of listening in fact limits oneself from the truth that is universal. We are actually operating in a very pre-defined and limiting way, which is unique to ourselves and gave us the unique experience which differs from each other.
By knowing this, it stands a chance to be more compassionate and acceptance to the others. On top of that, it also opens up the consciousness to experience something that is out of our usual and habitual way of experiencing things. A door opens up.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Why is it so difficult for oneself to choose love? It is very strange that many are advocating love, but to the other many who do not yet understanding this, choosing love is an uphill task which most of the time seems impossible.
What I can get is that there is no awareness when the choice stands in front of us. We don't even realised that we stand the chance to choose love rather than the others. And as a habit pattern operates in its usual manner, we choose other thing than love.
I have given myself a chance to choose love. I challenge my mind to choose love at every situation and when meeting anyone. It will be fun to see how the mind falls back to its usual pattern and observe how the wisdom direct the mind to choose love on the way I look at things when awareness comes into play.
I failed when I started to play this game. When one of my engineers done something wrong, I raise my voice and express the anger, though I didn't scold him but at that moment, I forgot about the challenge I place on the mind and failed to see that this is a lesson.
So I see that the mind react so automatically. The so called failure is yet another opening to be conscious again to the incessant operating pattern that always fall into hatred and ill will. For it allows me to see that even though I wish to choose love in every situation, when the real test come, the mind falls into its previous pattern.
Being thankful to the realisation, I continue with my journey of choosing love in my way of perceiving the world, in all my action, speech and thoughts.
What I can get is that there is no awareness when the choice stands in front of us. We don't even realised that we stand the chance to choose love rather than the others. And as a habit pattern operates in its usual manner, we choose other thing than love.
I have given myself a chance to choose love. I challenge my mind to choose love at every situation and when meeting anyone. It will be fun to see how the mind falls back to its usual pattern and observe how the wisdom direct the mind to choose love on the way I look at things when awareness comes into play.
I failed when I started to play this game. When one of my engineers done something wrong, I raise my voice and express the anger, though I didn't scold him but at that moment, I forgot about the challenge I place on the mind and failed to see that this is a lesson.
So I see that the mind react so automatically. The so called failure is yet another opening to be conscious again to the incessant operating pattern that always fall into hatred and ill will. For it allows me to see that even though I wish to choose love in every situation, when the real test come, the mind falls into its previous pattern.
Being thankful to the realisation, I continue with my journey of choosing love in my way of perceiving the world, in all my action, speech and thoughts.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Whatever that happened around me, did affect me, no matter how much I think I am immuned to it.
I thought that I am not staying with my mother since year 2001, and her moving to a new house with my second brother is ok for me, and won't affect me much. But what happened is not what I expected. When they moved into the new house on Saturday, which is about a 20 minutes to half an hour drive from where I am staying now, I felt certain kind of lost and uncertainty. It is as if some part of me is being ripped away.
I never thought of I will be having that kind of feeling. I always think I will be fine. When things didn't happen, I won't know. Maybe this is a lesson that I need to learn, never ever judge too fast before I really experience it myself. Maybe it is also a good way for me to realise how I have cheated myself all the while with my hard shield and pretentious of nothing is going to affect me. What a stupid egoic attitude.
However, because of that, I come to appreciate those who are present in my life, like my brothers and sisters. I come to realise that they show me a gift with their presence. Each one of them, come with a beautiful gift that is waiting for me to recognise and appreciate of. Without this incident, it might took me longer years to notice it. But now, I am in deep gratitude for what is there for me.
There are always some lessons that come with changes. With awareness, willingness and readiness to see, I will be able to receive all the gifts there is for me.
I thought that I am not staying with my mother since year 2001, and her moving to a new house with my second brother is ok for me, and won't affect me much. But what happened is not what I expected. When they moved into the new house on Saturday, which is about a 20 minutes to half an hour drive from where I am staying now, I felt certain kind of lost and uncertainty. It is as if some part of me is being ripped away.
I never thought of I will be having that kind of feeling. I always think I will be fine. When things didn't happen, I won't know. Maybe this is a lesson that I need to learn, never ever judge too fast before I really experience it myself. Maybe it is also a good way for me to realise how I have cheated myself all the while with my hard shield and pretentious of nothing is going to affect me. What a stupid egoic attitude.
However, because of that, I come to appreciate those who are present in my life, like my brothers and sisters. I come to realise that they show me a gift with their presence. Each one of them, come with a beautiful gift that is waiting for me to recognise and appreciate of. Without this incident, it might took me longer years to notice it. But now, I am in deep gratitude for what is there for me.
There are always some lessons that come with changes. With awareness, willingness and readiness to see, I will be able to receive all the gifts there is for me.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Remembering
How frequently have I given my power away to anger, jealousy, anxiety, grief, anguish etc and feel myself too small, too powerless, too useless or too worthless for anything?
Every time I indulge in these negative emotional state, I gave up my power, feeding the negativity and belittle my self.
What an amazing creative power to come out with such wonderful plot and conspiracy to make me forget myself. What an amazing infinte being I am to create such wonderful game.
Now, time to remember that I created all these as a game for me to forget myself. The fun part of the next level of game kicks in now. A game of remembering who I am, as an infinite being, as a being that create all these, the illusions in the world. How to remember? Re-create the game!
Remember, I am the infinite being that create this world! Every moment stands a chance to re-create and be the One that I am really are. Be conscious, aware and mindful! The world is mine for re-creation! The One of Mighty Power, and Presence of God!
Every time I indulge in these negative emotional state, I gave up my power, feeding the negativity and belittle my self.
What an amazing creative power to come out with such wonderful plot and conspiracy to make me forget myself. What an amazing infinte being I am to create such wonderful game.
Now, time to remember that I created all these as a game for me to forget myself. The fun part of the next level of game kicks in now. A game of remembering who I am, as an infinite being, as a being that create all these, the illusions in the world. How to remember? Re-create the game!
Remember, I am the infinite being that create this world! Every moment stands a chance to re-create and be the One that I am really are. Be conscious, aware and mindful! The world is mine for re-creation! The One of Mighty Power, and Presence of God!
Beautiful Heart
I have a beautiful heart,
A heart that radiate kindness, gentleness and love.
I accept all beings that come to my life with a smile.
I open up my arms to receive,
with joy and peace,
with freedom and harmony,
loving all, accepting all.
I enjoy having a beautiful heart,
which is able to touch another,
connect and communicate freely,
expand and expand and expand,
touching everyone with a soft breeze,
leaving a trace of softness,
uplift the others to higher vibration,
with joy and gentleness.
Come! Let's have a beautiful heart.
Joining with others in whatever way possible.
And let's make it a world with beautiful hearts.
A heart that radiate kindness, gentleness and love.
I accept all beings that come to my life with a smile.
I open up my arms to receive,
with joy and peace,
with freedom and harmony,
loving all, accepting all.
I enjoy having a beautiful heart,
which is able to touch another,
connect and communicate freely,
expand and expand and expand,
touching everyone with a soft breeze,
leaving a trace of softness,
uplift the others to higher vibration,
with joy and gentleness.
Come! Let's have a beautiful heart.
Joining with others in whatever way possible.
And let's make it a world with beautiful hearts.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Who is there?
The mind has been wondering and thinking much. It has been fulfilling its function well by thinking and thinking and thinking. There is not much else the mind could do except doing what it should be doing.
Interpretation is another function that the mind is well adept. Whenever the eyes meet with an object, be it another person or another phyiscal form, the first thing it does is interpret according to what it believes. It is so obvious and automatic. I did it all the times.
When I saw some one, they could be some one I know or some one I meet for the first time. If the person is some one I know, I will interpret this person according to whatever exprience I have with him/her previously. If that person makes me feel great, the encounter will always be accompanied with happy feeling and desire to be together more. However, if the person has caused me to feel pain and hurt before, the interpretation will always be this person is terrible. When this happen, I miss the opportunity to be with this being, to be with whom this person is. What I am with this time is only my mind, my thought, my interpretation.
When the encounter is with some one whom I have not meet before, the first interpretation of the mind will be based on what I have experienced with strangers before, possibly memory of the encounters when I was a kid, a teenager, or a young adult. If I was being protected by my parents and elder brothers and sisters when I was young, I will start building a protective shield when I meet with some one new. An illusionary shield that keeps me away from feeling insecure.
It is very strange and odd on how the mind works and keep itself from being in touch with the beingness within. With all these automated programmes of interpretation, judgements, masking etc, how can I be with myself? Who I am with is just a bundle of ideas and thoughts that prevent me from going deep into the real beingness in this embodiment. What a strange manifestation of the mind and body... What a strange happening and living in this human realm... What a strange ignorance and not knowing....
Interpretation is another function that the mind is well adept. Whenever the eyes meet with an object, be it another person or another phyiscal form, the first thing it does is interpret according to what it believes. It is so obvious and automatic. I did it all the times.
When I saw some one, they could be some one I know or some one I meet for the first time. If the person is some one I know, I will interpret this person according to whatever exprience I have with him/her previously. If that person makes me feel great, the encounter will always be accompanied with happy feeling and desire to be together more. However, if the person has caused me to feel pain and hurt before, the interpretation will always be this person is terrible. When this happen, I miss the opportunity to be with this being, to be with whom this person is. What I am with this time is only my mind, my thought, my interpretation.
When the encounter is with some one whom I have not meet before, the first interpretation of the mind will be based on what I have experienced with strangers before, possibly memory of the encounters when I was a kid, a teenager, or a young adult. If I was being protected by my parents and elder brothers and sisters when I was young, I will start building a protective shield when I meet with some one new. An illusionary shield that keeps me away from feeling insecure.
It is very strange and odd on how the mind works and keep itself from being in touch with the beingness within. With all these automated programmes of interpretation, judgements, masking etc, how can I be with myself? Who I am with is just a bundle of ideas and thoughts that prevent me from going deep into the real beingness in this embodiment. What a strange manifestation of the mind and body... What a strange happening and living in this human realm... What a strange ignorance and not knowing....
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Awareness to Wisdom
Learning to be aware of what is happening in the mind and body right now is not an easy task. I have been too used to just get involved with my thoughts, actions and speech without really knowing what I think, what I do and what I say. It runs on an automated mode. In a way, I am just a robot, running based on a pre-installed programme.
Having learn meditation and awareness, I come to know that being aware is actually not a difficult task. Whenever I remember, I am already aware. However, being aware doesn't mean I am able to be perfect all the time. My teacher used to tell us that being aware is just like using a torchlight, shining on what is happening only. When the place is lighten up, then only I will be able to see what is happening there.
Therefore, having the intellingent and wisdom to be there to observe and watch what is happening is more crucial. Whatever that is happening in the mind is too fast most of the time for me to catch up. And happen too frequent, the watching mind is tainted with the desire to get rid of what is unpleasant and crave for what is pleasant.
Only when there is honest awareness (now I understand why my teacher use the word honest awareness), I can observe without holding on and resistance to what is happening. Only with this supportive conditions, wisdom is allow to flourish.
Paying wise attention is another important factor to get closer to the gate of freedom. Relief that comes in when the mind understand the situation is not as important as how the mind arrive at that point. Too often, I get caught in the relief that I forgot to be aware of the function of wisdom that bring about the relief.
Now I understand what the teacher tries to tell me.
Having learn meditation and awareness, I come to know that being aware is actually not a difficult task. Whenever I remember, I am already aware. However, being aware doesn't mean I am able to be perfect all the time. My teacher used to tell us that being aware is just like using a torchlight, shining on what is happening only. When the place is lighten up, then only I will be able to see what is happening there.
Therefore, having the intellingent and wisdom to be there to observe and watch what is happening is more crucial. Whatever that is happening in the mind is too fast most of the time for me to catch up. And happen too frequent, the watching mind is tainted with the desire to get rid of what is unpleasant and crave for what is pleasant.
Only when there is honest awareness (now I understand why my teacher use the word honest awareness), I can observe without holding on and resistance to what is happening. Only with this supportive conditions, wisdom is allow to flourish.
Paying wise attention is another important factor to get closer to the gate of freedom. Relief that comes in when the mind understand the situation is not as important as how the mind arrive at that point. Too often, I get caught in the relief that I forgot to be aware of the function of wisdom that bring about the relief.
Now I understand what the teacher tries to tell me.
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