Learning to be aware of what is happening in the mind and body right now is not an easy task. I have been too used to just get involved with my thoughts, actions and speech without really knowing what I think, what I do and what I say. It runs on an automated mode. In a way, I am just a robot, running based on a pre-installed programme.
Having learn meditation and awareness, I come to know that being aware is actually not a difficult task. Whenever I remember, I am already aware. However, being aware doesn't mean I am able to be perfect all the time. My teacher used to tell us that being aware is just like using a torchlight, shining on what is happening only. When the place is lighten up, then only I will be able to see what is happening there.
Therefore, having the intellingent and wisdom to be there to observe and watch what is happening is more crucial. Whatever that is happening in the mind is too fast most of the time for me to catch up. And happen too frequent, the watching mind is tainted with the desire to get rid of what is unpleasant and crave for what is pleasant.
Only when there is honest awareness (now I understand why my teacher use the word honest awareness), I can observe without holding on and resistance to what is happening. Only with this supportive conditions, wisdom is allow to flourish.
Paying wise attention is another important factor to get closer to the gate of freedom. Relief that comes in when the mind understand the situation is not as important as how the mind arrive at that point. Too often, I get caught in the relief that I forgot to be aware of the function of wisdom that bring about the relief.
Now I understand what the teacher tries to tell me.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment