Who is there?

The mind has been wondering and thinking much. It has been fulfilling its function well by thinking and thinking and thinking. There is not much else the mind could do except doing what it should be doing.

Interpretation is another function that the mind is well adept. Whenever the eyes meet with an object, be it another person or another phyiscal form, the first thing it does is interpret according to what it believes. It is so obvious and automatic. I did it all the times.

When I saw some one, they could be some one I know or some one I meet for the first time. If the person is some one I know, I will interpret this person according to whatever exprience I have with him/her previously. If that person makes me feel great, the encounter will always be accompanied with happy feeling and desire to be together more. However, if the person has caused me to feel pain and hurt before, the interpretation will always be this person is terrible. When this happen, I miss the opportunity to be with this being, to be with whom this person is. What I am with this time is only my mind, my thought, my interpretation.

When the encounter is with some one whom I have not meet before, the first interpretation of the mind will be based on what I have experienced with strangers before, possibly memory of the encounters when I was a kid, a teenager, or a young adult. If I was being protected by my parents and elder brothers and sisters when I was young, I will start building a protective shield when I meet with some one new. An illusionary shield that keeps me away from feeling insecure.

It is very strange and odd on how the mind works and keep itself from being in touch with the beingness within. With all these automated programmes of interpretation, judgements, masking etc, how can I be with myself? Who I am with is just a bundle of ideas and thoughts that prevent me from going deep into the real beingness in this embodiment. What a strange manifestation of the mind and body... What a strange happening and living in this human realm... What a strange ignorance and not knowing....